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[Sunday, October 1st, 2006 @ 10:25pm]
Of course, General Conference was spectacular. After each session, I always find myself thinking to myself, "Wow! That was the best one ever!" The Spirit that's present at these Conferences is truly undeniable. Never before today have I felt the Spirit more strongly impressing upon my mind that Gordon B. Hinckley truly is a prophet on the earth today. I had felt it before, and, obviously believed and knew it in my heart, but, today, it seemed to consume my entire being. I could feel his love so strongly. It simply pours from his eyes, even when he is not speaking. I don't know that there was anything different about him today ... all I knew was that I took a whole new feeling away with me. At the end, when we waved with his cane and blew kisses, I felt as if my heart would melt.

Elder Holland's talk also touched my heart so deeply. There was so much emotion poured into it.

Every talk touched me in a different way. I am so grateful to be alive in this dispensation of the fulness of times ... where I can drive to my church-house, and see the face of a prophet via satellite. It doesn't matter how far away we are from where he physically stands. The Lord has enough love to fill the universe and then have some left over. How wonderful it must be to be an Apostle ... to be able to walk, talk, and be friends with a living Prophet of God.

I truly cannot fathom how anyone could sit through a Conference and come out with any shred of doubt in their mind. My heart is so full right now that I can find no more words to express what I'm feeling, but, if you attended Conference in any way this weekend, you can probably understand.

It was so sad to see how many people casually passed off sessions this weekend ... and to know exactly what they missed. I would not trade the experiences that I had this weekend for anything in this world. I just hope that we all pulled something away from it that we can always hold on to, and that those feelings and ideas can affect those around us and bring those who wander ... or have never yet followed ... into the fold. There is truly nothing better than this feeling.

I have also learned more clearly how much God truly speaks to me through music. Some of the dearest lessons I've learned have been through song. I'm sure being a music lover has a lot to do with it. He, in fact, knows us all and always finds the dearest avenue to our hearts. When I hear the Mormon Tabernacle Choir, at times, I close my eyes and feel as if I am standing at the gates of Heaven itself, being welcomed by a beautiful choir of angels. We're so privileged to be able to receive this guidance and reassurance in these last days, so that we can find the strength to endure to the end and truly be greeted by those angels, and even the faces and loving arms of both our Heavenly Father and His Son, Jesus Christ, one day.

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[Sunday, July 9th, 2006 @ 12:03am]
As I look back on these past 2 and a half years or so that it's been since I joined the Church, I am mindful of how blessed I have been in so many ways. I have been able to be sealed in the Temple, to both my husband and my son. I have been blessed to see things that several life long members have never seen. I have been to General Conference, I have been to Kirtland, I have been to temples scattered across the country: Washington D.C., Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Columbus, San Diego, and, at the end of the month, I will be going to Palmyra and touring the Sacred Grove. I will get to see with my own eyes where this "great and marvelous work" began. I have been blessed to serve in Relief Society and also in Primary. I am so humbled by the fact that Heavenly Father trusts me enough to teach his children, and to also have them teach me. I have had a glimpse at exactly what He meant when the words were spoken, "of such is the kingdom of Heaven". I have no idea what Heavenly Father sees in or has in store for me, but I will continue to be that clay in His hand. It may not be on the mountain top or over the stormy sea. It may not be at the battle's front. My Lord will have need of me. But, if by a still, small voice He calls to paths that I do not know, I'll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in thine: I'll go where you want me to go.

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[Tuesday, June 13th, 2006 @ 9:11pm]
I'm tired of lackadaisical religion. I'm tired of the generic, "I love you no matter what you do". I'm tired of no one sticking up for what they believe. It's nice to love and care about someone, but if you're genuine, then you'll let them know the truth whether they like it or not. I'd rather have a mad friend than a disillusioned friend. There are several examples of such situations in the Scriptures:

Isaiah 30:
8 ¶ Now go, awrite it before them in a table, and note it in a book, that it may be for the time to come for ever and ever:

9 That athis• is a brebellious• people, lying children, children that will not hear the law of the LORD:

10 Which say to the aseers, See not; and to the prophets, Prophesy not unto us right things, speak unto us bsmooth things, prophesy cdeceits:
11 Get you out of the way, turn aside out of the path, cause the Holy One of Israel to cease from before us.

Helaman 13:
24 Yea, wo unto this people, because of this time which has arrived, that ye do cast out the prophets, and do mock them, and cast stones at them, and do slay them, and do all manner of iniquity unto them, even as they did of old time.

25 And now when ye talk, ye say: If our days had been in the days of our fathers of old, we would not have slain the prophets; we would not have stoned them, and cast them out.

26 Behold ye are worse than they; for as the Lord liveth, if a prophet come among you and declareth unto you the word of the Lord, which testifieth of your sins and iniquities, ye are angry with him, and cast him out and seek all manner of ways to destroy him; yea, you will say that he is a false prophet, and that he is a sinner, and of the devil, because he ftestifieth• that your deeds are evil.

27 But behold, if a man shall come among you and shall say: Do this, and there is no iniquity; do that and ye shall not suffer; yea, he will say: Walk after the pride of your own hearts; yea, walk after the pride of your eyes, and do whatsoever your heart desireth—and if a man shall come among you and say this, ye will receive him, and say that he is a prophet.

28 Yea, ye will lift him up, and ye will give unto him of your substance; ye will give unto him of your gold, and of your silver, and ye will clothe him with costly apparel; and because he speaketh flattering words unto you, and he saith that all is well, then ye will not find fault with him.

29 O ye wicked and ye perverse generation; ye hardened and ye stiffnecked people, how long will ye suppose that the Lord will suffer you? Yea, how long will ye suffer yourselves to be led by foolish and blind guides? Yea, how long will ye choose darkness rather than light?

There are obviously more, but these are 2 of my favorites. That'll suffice for now.

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[Monday, June 5th, 2006 @ 4:24pm]
WASHINGTON — Elder Russell M. Nelson, a member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles — the second-highest governing body of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints — joined other religious leaders today in Washington, D.C., to speak in support of a constitutional amendment protecting marriage.

At an Alliance for Marriage press conference at the U.S. Capitol building, he said:

“The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is pleased to be represented in this significant cause. While those of us here today represent a broad spectrum of religious diversity, we are firmly united in our declaration that marriage of a man and a woman is ordained of God. The sanctity of marriage and family constitutes the spiritual undergirding of lasting and successful societies.

“Together we share a duty to preserve marriage and family as established by God. The time has now come when a constitutional amendment is needed in this country to protect our divine inheritance. Such action does not reduce our regard for individuals who choose to live by other standards. But it confirms our conviction that marriage is the foundry for social order, the fountain of virtue and the foundation for eternal exaltation.

“In 1995, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints issued a proclamation to the world on the family. From it I quote:

“ ‘We call upon responsible citizens and officers of government everywhere to promote those measures designed to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society.’

“Thus we unite with other religious leaders who also are committed to preserve and promote that same objective.”

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[Sunday, June 4th, 2006 @ 9:52pm]
[ mood | happy ]

The entry that I was going to make today is largely expressed in the letter that I just wrote to the Primary president, so, instead of re-writing what I've already done, I'm just going to copy and paste! ;]

Boy! For being so quickly arranged, today's Sharing Time sure was wonderful! =) It was easily one of the most touching things that I've ever witnessed. It is no wonder that Christ said that “of such is the Kingdom of Heaven”.
I must admit, when I was first called to Primary, I was a little worried. I felt inadequate to teach such wonderful children. But, I knew that the decision was inspired, and that if Heavenly Father said that I could do it, who was to say that I couldn't? I read a funny sign at someone's house the other day. “I know that God says that we can do anything ... sometimes, I just wish that he didn't trust me so much!” That certainly applied to how I felt for the first little bit. The first few weeks were a little rough, but I was honestly so nervous and so new to it that I thought that the feeling would just pass.
I knew that I belonged in Primary. At the time, I never thought to question as to whether I was in the right class. Looking back on it, it seems so silly that I didn't realize it, but, luckily for me, I had a Primary president, who was so in tune with the Spirit that she could feel it for herself.
I adore these kids. I adore them. I had been thinking about it recently and realized today just how happy I really was here when I noticed myself kissing Maddie's forehead and playing with Abby's hair. Today, I had the children make a picture for someone that they were thankful for and to explain to them why they were thankful for them. I watched as they made cute little pictures for their parents. Then, Jeremy Beutler asked me what my name was. I had told him before that it was Sister Scott.
“I remember that. What's your first name?”
I spelled it for him and watched as he wrote it down on his drawing. I teared up when I realized that he was making his for me. I have known this child for less than a month. I was stunned.
“Thank you for being my teacher and for teaching me about the Church and about Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.”
My heart is in Primary. I can't picture myself anywhere else right now. It seems so funny to look back a few months and think about how nervous I was ... and then to flash forward to now and realize how comfortable, blessed, and happy I am.
Thank you for being such a wonderful Primary president and for helping me to realize that this is where I need to be, and, perhaps more importantly now, where I want and love to be.

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[Wednesday, May 17th, 2006 @ 1:20am]
Yep, this journal's still alive. ;]

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about something that our Home Teacher said to us a couple months ago. "I'm sure that good's obviously going to come from reading the Book of Mormon in general, but I get the feeling that there's more to it. What's going to happen in this next year that's going to make this so important?"

I've really been pondering that thought a lot especially now with the way that the world is currently sabotaging Christ. They are attempting to change who He was and what His purpose is. How fitting that a prophet of God should have instructed us last August to re-read the Book of Mormon. Why then, of all times was this important? As I look on how rapidly the world has changed since then, I can't help but think that this is not just another "coincidence". It was important for us to read the Book of Mormon last year. We needed that extra Testament of Christ to ensure who he really was, not who people throughout time and ages have purported him to be and decided that he is. You know, people are always asking us why we need the Book of Mormon, and this is a perfect example. It's just like the illustration that the missionaries use ... when you nail up a board with one nail, it can still swing back and forth, but once you put that second nail in, it is solid, and immovable. We have that second nail, the Book of Mormon, to hold us steady while the world is wavering, and how lucky we are to have a prophet who can prepare us for such events.

We have the Da Vinci Code and the Holy Grail. We have the "Gospel of Judas". But, really, it only really enforces what we already knew about him. Who knows where these things came from? I honestly haven't looked into any of them much, but what does it change that Christ may have been married to Mary Magdalene? That's no new idea to us. And what would it have changed for Judas to have been asked to do as he did? When you see the big picture and stop getting caught up in all the minute details, it suddenly becomes clear.

What a better time to present the fulness of the Gospel to these people who are doubting and questioning so much?

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[Monday, May 1st, 2006 @ 5:12pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Oh, I forgot! With good news, there is always, of course, bad news. They dropped one of our areas from missionary work, since they have had no active interest in so long, and the stake is lacking sister missionaries... or something, so we are losing our sisters. I'm bummed. Another case of not knowing what you've got 'til it's gone! I took advantage of having the sisters and going on splits. The elders are great, of course, but it's certainly not the same. I'm not sure how long it'll last. Hopefully not too long! ;] Sister Jo is getting sent home a month early because of it. It's really sad ...

I was taught by the sisters. My life was so touched by them, and I've formed special friendships with so many of them. It's definitely a great loss for us, but I know that it is for the best. In the meantime, they are working on calling several ward missionaries to visit the inactive members and investigators in the area, but, for the meantime, no active proselyting. There are so many people up there ... it's so sad to think of. But I know that He knows and understands better than I do, and that there is a greater need in some other area. It'll just be weird for awhile.

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[Monday, May 1st, 2006 @ 1:59pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So, I'm finally updating! I know. It's been awhile. Not too terribly long in time, but a long lapse from all the things that I wished I could have been writing about.

Yesterday was amazing. Saturday was amazing. I love Brother Young. He is easily one of my favorite speakers locally. Ever hear one of those talks that feels like it is custom-made just for you? Well, that was how his talk made me feel yesterday! It touched me so much. It was exactly what I had needed to hear. He put some of the feelings that I had been wanting to express to my family into words so perfectly! I really wanted to talk to him after and thank him, but he was conducting recommend interviews [he's a member of the Stake Presidency], so I didn't get to catch him. I will elaborate more on his talk later. I will never forget it, so it's no big worry to me scribble it all down right now. ;P I don't have a whole lot of time, and I don't want to rush through it.

Saturday was Stake Enrichment day. We put together care packages for parents and caregivers in the NICU and Pediatric Hospice. It was such a good feeling to able to do something, regardless of how small, for those who are having a hard time. It was such a touching and amazing day. I almost missed it, too! Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU Kris for calling to wake me up ... even if it was only 5 minutes before they were leaving! ;]

I threw on a quick, "safe" outfit, and ran out with my makeup bag. The ride to Pittsburgh's a little over an hour, so I had plenty of time. It was good to be around the women again. With being in Primary, now, I feel so distant from them sometimes, but I'm so grateful for these experiences that pull us back together. It was also a great opportunity to get ourselves out there, because we got to work with women from the Presbyterian Church, and "Sisters in Zion" left a couple of them in tears. There are so many hard feelings against us around here, so it's always good to get an opportunity to lighten someone's mind, regardless of how it's done.

From that entire experience, it has strengthened my desire to work at the Hospice this summer. It would be great to be able to work at the Children's Hospital, but it's an hour and a half each way. OVHospice is only about 15 minutes, so I'll stick with it. ;] I need to call and figure out when they need/want me to start, because now that Chris is working from home, it makes the window of opportunity a lot larger.

Jill's wedding shower was last night. She is such a sweetheart! I would have never imagined that I would've been married before her, though. She's 5 years older than me and always teased me about it. Well, look at me now! ;P They're living down in Florida right now, and working at Disneyworld, but she came "home" for her shower, and then they'll be back in July to get married! ;] July 22nd, in fact. I'm just writing that down in case I forget the date! ;P I hadn't met her fiance before last night, but he is great! It's so comforting to know that one of your good friends is marrying such a good guy ... unfortunately, I can't say the same for some of the others.

Ron & Linda were the ones that got her adopted into her family when she was 10 years old, and she said that if it wasn't for him that she would have never had a dad to walk her down the aisle and that she would never be able to be married by anyone else. Not a dry eye in the house, I tell ya! ;P

What else? Oh, gosh! I do not know ... it was an incredible weekend that definitely refreshed my spirit!

Then, in the mail today, I got my Maren Ord CD and my Ensign! I am set! ;)))


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Please keep this family in your prayers. [Tuesday, April 25th, 2006 @ 8:18pm]
Drunken driver kills Mormon missionary
The Salt Lake Tribune

A missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints was killed Sunday while walking to church in San Luis, Argentina.
Elder Matthew S. Turley of Ridgefield, Conn., died after being struck from behind by a drunken driver who had drifted to the wrong side of the road, according to church officials.
His companion, Elder Tyler A. Watts, of West Valley City, was also struck. Watts was treated at an area hospital and later released. He is expected to make a full recovery.
Watts' Stake President, Roger Nordgren, said there was every indication that the elder would finish his mission. Nordgren said the men got along well and "had formed a real close friendship" in the two months they served together as companions.
Church spokesman Dale Bills wished the Turley family deepest sympathies. "We pray that the Lord will comfort them as they mourn his loss. Our prayers are also with Elder Watts and his family as he recovers from his injuries."


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[Tuesday, April 25th, 2006 @ 6:33pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

LDS actor James Arrington, who has portrayed Brigham Young in a one-man show for the past 23 years, shared his favorite story of the prophet in the Thursday, April 22, 1999 Provo Daily Herald:

It seems that a man came bursting into Brigham Young's office, crutches flying. He only had one leg, and he shouted, "Now, Mr. Prophet, I want you to give me another leg this instant. Otherwise, I will publish it abroad that you are not a prophet at all."

President Young apparently told him that would be easy enough, but that consequences would result. Young explained that if he gave him another leg, it would rise with him in the resurrection - as would the other two legs. That meant the man would have to deal with three legs for all eternity.

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[Tuesday, April 25th, 2006 @ 12:44pm]

I created a new journal. Feel free to add it. I'm not pushing it, because it's mostly going to be just pictures, quotes, surveys, etc., but I felt I should at least offer. ;]


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[Monday, April 24th, 2006 @ 3:16pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I'm not a big fan of being landlocked. I absolutely adore the beach, but I also know that I will probably never have the capacity to move the distance from my family that it would require to be near a beach. Lake Erie, maybe? Haaa! ;]

In other words, I am ridiculously excited for May 10th, which is when we will be leaving for California. We'll only be there for 5 days, but I'll take what I can get. They were wanting to charge us $450 for a small rental car for 5 days. R.I.D.I.C.U.L.O.U.S. Needless to say, we will not be doing that. We're just going to rent it for the first couple days that we're there, so that we can get down to San Diego. The last few won't matter, because it will all be about Brian's wedding, so we just just hop in with some family member.

Isaak is sooo cute! He gave the closing prayer yesterday in Sharing Time, and one of his parents was supposed to come in and help him. He's only 5 years old, and speaks very broken English, so he gets nervous easily. That child never ceases to amaze me! I think that we were buddies in our pre-mortal lives. He is so stand-offish and shy around so many people, but for some reason, he feels comfortable around me. Yes, I'm around him at Church a little, but I'm not his teacher. And, I'm at his house on occasion, but no more than a couple times a month. We just have some kind of special little connection going. Once, he even came up to me in the hallway and bore his testimony! There are no words to express how adorable it was, and I will truly never forget that.

The reason that I had him yesterday was because Sarah was sick. So, continuing with my narrative! He gave the closing prayer, and neither of his parents were available, so I offered to help him. I went up and knelt beside him. I was prepared to whisper the words in his ear and have him recite them, but he just started going. He went on and on for several minutes. I whispered a couple times, "In Jesus Name, Amen ... " ... "In Jesus Name, Amen" ... trying to help him wrap up, but on he went. He paused for a minute, and on the fourth or fifth try, he conceded and wrapped up. He is one of the most spiritual little boys ever. We'll just be standing there, and he'll start going on and on about "baby Jesus". fdjsiofdsjiofdn. Too cuuute!


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[Saturday, April 22nd, 2006 @ 6:24pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Don't panic, Renee. I saved all your names! ;]

Here you gooooCollapse )

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[Friday, April 21st, 2006 @ 2:17pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Whoaa. It just hit me. It is Friday! ♥sss!

Ha. I'm a goober, but I love the weekends. Bethany comes home, lots of hanging out with family, eating lots of grandma's food, and date nights. Hopefully, we'll get to see Bench Warmers this week. I don't know who/if anyone's going to be open for babysitting.

I miss my friends! It's so hard having them scattered all over the country. I want to be in, like, 25 places at one time. My heart is in Lindon [Utah], Wyoming [Michigan], Wheeling [West Virginia .. here! ;] ], Searcy [Arkansas], Orange [New Jersey], Ocala [Florida] and Alta Loma [California] all at once right now. I miss you guys like crazy! I need to see you all. So, I know that it's cliche, but I really do believe that I have the best friends in the world, and such a wonderful, diverse blend.

Crap! Kayla's on her way! House = trash. I = paniccc!

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[Thursday, April 20th, 2006 @ 2:17pm]
So fitting that I should get this no less than 5 minutes after making that last entry ..

"Life has its share of some fear and some failure. Sometimes things fall short, don't quite measure up. Sometimes in both personal and public life, we are seemingly left without strength to go on. Sometimes people fail us, or economies and circumstance fail us, and life with its hardship and heartache can leave us feeling very alone.
"But when such difficult moments come to us, I testify that there is one thing which will never, ever fail us. One thing alone will stand the test of all time, of all tribulation, all trouble, and all transgression. One thing only never faileth--and that is the pure love of Christ."

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland on the Pure Love of Christ

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[Thursday, April 20th, 2006 @ 12:04pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

I am considering making a Church-y scrapbook with favorite scriptures, quotes, hymns, and pictures of Church events, temples, baptisms, missionary friends, etc. I have never made a scrapbook before, but I've been thinking about this one for awhile, and it sounds pretty good .. in my head! ;] I know that most of you are scrapbookin' kind of people, so I was just wondering if any of you had any pointers/ideas/websites, etc, or if you think that this even sounds like a good idea. Thanks so much in advance! ♥

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Heheee. My dad sent me this. <3 [Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 @ 4:26pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Well, Girl Potato and Boy Potato
had eyes for each other,
and finally they got married,
and had a little sweet potato,
which they called 'Yam.'
Of course, they wanted the best for Yam.
When it was time,
they told her about the facts of life.
They warned her about going out
and getting half-baked,
so she wouldn't get accidentally mashed,
and get a bad name for herself like
'Hot Potato,'
and end up with a bunch of Tater Tots.
Yam said not to worry,
no Spud would get her into
the sack and make a rotten potato out of her!
But on the other hand
she wouldn't stay home
and become a Couch Potato either.
She would get plenty of exercise
so as not to be skinny
like her Shoestring cousins.
When she went off to Europe,
Mr. and Mrs. Potato told Yam
to watch out for the hard-boiled guys from Ireland.
And the greasy guys from France
called the French Fries.
And when she went out west,
to watch out for the Indians
so she wouldn't get scalloped.
Yam said she would stay on
the straight and narrow and wouldn't associate
with those high class Yukon Golds,
or the ones from the other side of the tracks
who advertise their trade
on all the trucks that say,
'Frito Lay.'
Mr. and Mrs. Potato sent Yam to Idaho P.U.
(that's Potato University)
so that when she graduated
she'd really be in the Chips.
But in spite of all they did for her,
one-day Yam came home and announced
she was going to marry Tom Brokaw.

Tom Brokaw!

Mr. and Mrs. Potato were very upset.
They told Yam she couldn't
possibly marry Tom Brokaw
because he's just.......

Are y ou ready for this?

Are you sure?


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[Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 @ 11:50am]
"When you step to the edge of all the light you have left and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you might believe one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you to step upon, or you will learn how to fly"

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[Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 @ 10:51am]
"When we live our religion, when we walk according to the light of the Spirit of God, when we purge ourselves [of] impurity and corruption, and the sweet whispering of the Spirit of the Lord pours intelligence into our bosoms, broods over us, causing peace and joy to be with us, we have then, more or less, a faint glimpse of those things that are laid up for the faithful, and it is then we feel as though we and all that we have are in the hands of the Lord and that we are ready to offer ourselves [as] a sacrifice for the accomplishment of his purposes upon the earth."

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[Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 @ 9:34am]
[ mood | bored ]

Survey time! I'm reaaally bored!Collapse )

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